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Keep your eyes and heart open as you go…
Miracles are everywhere!
Sometimes it’s the path itself where the beauty of God is revealed to us!
We are never alone!
I keep getting back up…
There are days when I just want to quit. I don’t want to keep fighting these battles. I just want to go my own way. I want to give up and be comfortable. I don’t want to be aware, or have to choose. I don’t want to be strong. I want to jump into the music business and go to the top. I want to sell myself to get there. I want to sing to thousands of people and get praise and acclaim from all over the world. I know I could work hard enough. I want to be spoiled and live in a nice house. I want to buy shoes and be shallow. I want to be beautiful and dress fabulous in designer clothes and prove to everyone, especially certain people on a short list I have, what I…yes, I said it, what I can do. If I can’t do that, then I want to forget it all and be able to be satisfied with some simple job and blend into anonymity, which then makes me want to just lay in bed for days, in my pajamas, and only get up to eat ice cream out of the container. I want…I want….I want….is the recurring theme.
Every day I am aware of how difficult, even impossible, it is to live this spiritual life. Every day I face a new choice of who I want to be, how I live. It goes against everything I seem to want. Every moment is a new choice to make. So many choices and so many times I fail. Over and over I fail. Yet God remains faithful. I have lived my faith – I have found the faithfulness of God to be so much more mind-blowing than I could ever comprehend. I have lived the miracles. No one can take that away from me! And so I continue with the struggle to love, the struggle to open my heart, the struggle to be patient and obedient and wait on God’s timing for my music. One more day the battle wages on and I chose to take one more faltering step with God. Yes, the warrior is a child every morning, every night and all through the day. Thankfully I know the truth that everything is grace! Gods mercy remains and is new every morning – just for me. Oh, and for everyone else who chooses to receive it.
Henri Nouwen says this about Spiritual Choices:
Choices. Choices make the difference. Two people are in the same accident and severely wounded. They did not choose to be in the accident. It happened to them. But one of them chose to live the experience in bitterness, the other in gratitude. These choices radically influenced their lives and the lives of their families and friends. We have very little control over what happens in our lives, but we have a lot of control over how we integrate and remember what happens. It is precisely these spiritual choices that determine whether we live our lives with dignity.
Then Sings My Soul…
Carpe Diem
Finally, what I really want is to be happy in this moment,
where the magic and miracles happen. Stay in the moment and all gifts are added as you breathe and take inspired action.
~Joe Vitale
For me 2012 is: the year of tenderness and vulnerability
Anne Voskamp (www.onethousandgifts.com) ‘names’ her years. My son, Brandon, and I used to have a rhyming theme for each year…ie: 2009 – will be fine; 2010 – time to win, etc. We would chant it and have fun, but overall it really didn’t have much meaning. 
I didn’t ‘name’ 2011, but, as I look back on it, it was truly a year of Transformation in many ways (check out the full Songs from the Valley Newsletter at www.songsfromthevalley.com).
Ann has chosen a greek word for ‘communion/community’ for her year 2012 – http://www.aholyexperience.com/2012/01/what-the-new-year-needs-most/. I like it. I even considered adopting it and taking the path with her this year, but as I sat down to write it, I realized that over this past year I have become more and more aware of the lack of tenderness and vulnerability in our lives and in our relationships – and how important it is! I must tell you it is one of my hardest and most challenging battles for me to continue to open my heart and offer tenderness and vulnerability to people who don’t even understand the principle. Yet, that is the heart of God to me, how could I not allow God to use me to show that heart to others?
I believe this so strongly, and continue to try to live it. I know this can only be from God – not me. It is my biggest miracle. I am not naturally tender. I can be very hard, I can set my mind and do very hard things – I have had to do very hard things. I am stubborn and I love fairness – I don’t naturally like to fight, but unfairness makes me want to fight to win! Yet, my belief system continues to challenge my heart. I have experienced much unfairness in my life, and God has used it to break me open and show me the importance of tenderness and vulnerability. ‘Love your enemies’ has kicked my proverbial butt many time! In 46 years, I only have one friend who has ever allowed me to glimpse a return of this principle in action. That friend has made a huge impact on my life, even though the friendship is, in some ways, very distant.
It is one of the most challenging things in my life for me to continue to practice what I believe on this issue, and yet I know it must be done, I want to get so much better at it, but I have a feeling this will always be something I will find difficult – if it was easy everyone would do it, right? All I know for sure is – without it there is no true, unconditional love in the world.
I understand why so many people are hurting and why they have shut down, and I know how important it is to show them they have a choice, and that making those choices are an all important, vital part of love and of living a happy and full life! And so my 2012 is dedicated to this theme of tenderness and vulnerability. It feels right.
This TED talk (I love TED!!!!! www.ted.com) is on vulnerability and it is so good! I want everyone to listen to it! This is a very, very, very, important talk. http://www.ted.com/talks/lang/en/brene_brown_on_vulnerability.html
Vulnerable, Like a Bird
Henri Nouwen http://www.henrinouwen.org/
Life is precious. Not because it is unchangeable, like a diamond, but because it is vulnerable, like a little bird. To love life means to love its vulnerability, asking for care, attention, guidance, and support. Life and death are connected by vulnerability. The newborn child and the dying elder both remind us of the preciousness of our lives. Let’s not forget the preciousness and vulnerability of life during the times we are powerful, successful, and popular. 
We are set to Soar into the impossible. – Ann Voskamp
God is looking for people through whom He can do the impossible.
What a pity when we plan only the things we can do by ourselves.” – A.W. Tozer
Set jaw, set times, set sights, set back to the wind…and unfold arms, like wings extending.
A New Year blows in.
I feel that Spirit wind catch, lift.
We are set to Soar into the impossible.
– Ann Voskamp
http://www.aholyexperience.com/
Happy New Year!!!
Life is Beautiful! – Motto of Marc’s Bagels, Blue Ash, Ohio
“I don’t really want more time;
I just want enough time.
Time to breathe deep & time to see real & time to laugh long, time to give You glory & rest deep & sing joy…
I just want time to do my one life well.
Life at its fullest is this sensitive, detonating sphere —
and it can be carried only in the hands of the unhurried and reverential—
a bubble held in awe.”
~ One Thousand Gifts: A Dare to Live Fully Right Where You Are
Inspiration for writing a plan!
If you intend to take goal setting seriously, you must up the ante by writing 
down your goals and revising them continuously. By choosing your goal and writing it down, you gain an edge. Most people simply respond to conditions rather than create conditions for a better life. While there is no magic pill or equation for success, one thing is sure: Those who fail to plan by not writing down their goals, by default, plan to fail.
~ Gary Ryan Blair
Goals
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