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on our way

You are on your way from Jerusalem to Jericho,
going out from the heart of your religion into your daily life.
Along the way you are assaulted.
Whatever your religion has given you is taken.
You are stripped of a good way to present yourself.
You are robbed of your worthiness, whatever is to your credit.

The priest who would receive your sacrifice is not interested.
The Levite who would assure your righteousness does not.
You have no power, no treasure, nothing to offer,
nothing with which to prove or defend yourself.
You are utterly dependent, and deeply alone.
There is no reason to love you.
And your enemy draws near and bends over you.
Your fear, what you reject and despise, looms.

And heals you.
The one you distance makes you a neighbor.
The one you judge shows you mercy.
The one you refuse to love loves you.

We are loved without reason.
We are saved, not successful.
Only the one dependent on mercy can show us mercy.
Only the vulnerable can teach us trust.
We need the poor, to learn to receive.
We need the guilty, to learn to be forgiven.
We need the alien, to see ourselves, and all souls.

Without them, how destitute we are
on the road from Jerusalem to Jericho,
poor and naked, lost in the land of grace,
love draining out of us, ravenously sucking on our egos,
shivering in the rags of our self-sufficiency.

I don’t know about trusting the Lord
what the mother in the projects knows.
I don’t understand forgiveness like the prisoner.
I need to learn humility from the prostitute.
I will truly get mercy only side by side
with those who have no other hope.

The Samaritan I fear and despise
is my teacher, my master,
my savior,
my Christ.

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Steve Garnaas-Holmes
Unfolding Light
http://www.unfoldinglight.net

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thoughts for you as you journey today

The only way to care for the disadvantaged – is to disadvantage yourself – which is guaranteed to turn out for your advantage.
– Ann Voskamp

 

God is not interested in my comfort, He’s interested in my healing.   – Paul Jones

Sometimes as I wake up and face the morning, I don’t feel hope or anticipation. I feel a weight on me—not a great, crushing burden, just a little load, enough to weigh my spirit down.  It’s usually the weight of something unpleasant coming, some duty or obligation, some sense of something I ought to do, something between me and joy.  Maybe it’s a big responsibility at work, or maybe it’s just a household chore. Or guilt over something that I messed up. Maybe it’s loneliness. Maybe it’s fear that this is not going to be a brilliant day. Maybe it’s a vague sense that I need to prove myself, or that my life ought to be somehow different, and that that difference is a long way off.  It’s a heavy feeling, a binding-up, discouraging feeling.
That’s when I sit down and come back to the present moment.  I disregard all those thoughts about the future or some other existence, and simply be aware of myself sitting in this room, breathing, alive, created by God, and a delight to God.  I direct my attention to God’s presence.  I don’t expect to feel it, but I let my deep awareness go beyond my feelings.  I become aware that God is lovingly present, embracing me and dwelling within me.  And in that presence I lay my burdens down.  I lay down my fears and expectations, my thoughts and feelings, all of it.  I lay down the burden of my despair, the burden of the rest of the day, the burden of upholding who I am.  I simply be, here and now, and let God be with me. In this moment, in this breath, there is only God.
And when after a time I go, I leave my burdens down by that riverside. I leave them.  And God goes with me, from this present moment into the next—free, beloved, and light.  Although sometimes I have to stop again and lay my burdens down once more and enter the joy and freedom of the present moment, the blessing of God’s presence. That’s the pilgrimage: not to carry your treasure to some far off destination; but to lay your burdens down and leave them and walk in the grace of God.  That’s the most beautiful journey of all.

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Steve Garnaas-Holmes
Unfolding Light
www.unfoldinglight.net

somedays I search until my heart says..yes!

OK, it’s afternoon and I still had not decided what to post to the blog today. Unusual, but it does happen. Bible reading, prayer and mediation, 25 to 30 inspirational blogs daily, plus whatever new is happening in the world, Pinterest browsing, add in my own emotion/struggle for the day. I don’t get stuck with what I want to be reminded of for the day very often – most days my heart finds what I need to be reminded of, or express, early in the morning. Yet today…

Here it is 1:30 in the afternoon and I’m still looking. My soul is restless today. A little fragile. A little disquieted. I found out one of my best friends in CT lost her sister yesterday to a tick borne illness complicated by long-term alcoholism. I am dealing with dementia and illness as a caretaker right now and yesterday was a bad day. Today I am tired. I am discouraged. I am lonely…

And then…I’m on Pinterest and suddenly I see a beautiful pin. photo

 

Oh my, I know that blog!!! It’s the Yes and Amen blog by Junelle Jacobsen ~ jj http://yesandamenblog.blogspot.com/

LOVE HER!! and so I headed over to get some inspiration and found my heart beating faster and my shoulders relaxing ever so slightly as I smiled and read what she is doing! I featured her last year in one of my favorite newsletters ever! I went back and read it…you can read it here: http://songsfromthevalley.com/August%2012%205.13%20Inspiration.pdf

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Amazing! Inspiring! Joyous! Glory! Turn-my-day-around fun! THIS is why I live looking for inspiration – it can totally change your day! God is so good to us to give us such rich and diverse gifts to share! Thank you JJ for sharing your amazing and beautiful soul and talents! Sending you love and prayers today – for whatever you are struggling with! God is certainly with you and, to God be all the Glory!

even when it’s dark

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trusting yourself

1Developing self-esteem requires an act of revolution, or several mini-revolutions, in which we begin to separate from group thought and establish our own sense of authority. We may suddenly; realize we hold an opinion different from our family or our peers, but in either case we will have difficulty freeing ourselves from the group’s energy, whose strength depends upon numbers and opposition to most expressions of individuality The act of finding our own voice, even in mini-revolutions, is spiritually significant. Spiritual maturity is measured not by the sophistication of a person’s opinions, but by their genuineness and the courage necessary to express and maintain them. By courage, I do not mean the intractable stubbornness of two people locking horns, Spiritual maturity in contrast, is the capacity to stand one’s ground as a reflection of a genuine inner belief.
– Caroline Myss

all we need…

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What if this is the last thing I ever write?
What if I’m gone
Tomorrow
Or even today?
What is the most important thing I have learned from my time here?
Not even hard questions for me…
God = Love
Yes, that’s it.
Sounds simple,
yet it is so much more.
We are the beloved creations of God,
never alone,
loved beyond our comprehension.
Begin to explore it.
Just glimpses of true love
will change your life.
Begin to discover the truth about what love really is,
the intimacy that is possible,
how love really acts.
(We’ve been tricked into thinking
it’s about physical attraction,
or that it’s self serving.)
Real Love has NO fear attached.
None – about anything.
We are free to be transparent.
We are always loved like this.
Hope we talk tomorrow…
but if not,
I’ve shared the best thing I know
I’m ok – either way

AL
12/16/12

where the dark things are

4aMost of our Advent traditions formed centuries ago among Christian and  pre-Christian Celtic and Germanic peoples, as they approached the winter solstice.  So there’s a lot about darkness, stillness and silence.   Farmers removed idle wagon wheels to make wreaths with candles,  reflecting on the fallow season of waiting and hope. All this darkness  and cold might sound a little off to you who live in Australia, where  summer’s about to begin, or South Africa or Brazil, or for that matter  even Texas. While we’re singing about the “bleak midwinter” the folks in Corpus Christi and Adelaide go to the beach.

We call this a  season of silence and stillness―notice how may carols have silence in  them―but we’re rushing around, busier than ever, and making more noise  than usual ringing bells and singing in public, if you can believe it!  We’re playing music and stringing up extra lights as if to banish the  very darkness and silence we adore.

The darkness and quiet of  December in the north country is a symbol, but not the whole of it.  After all, there isn’t that much bleak, dark midwinter in Bethlehem―and  actually Jesus probably wasn’t born in the winter anyway. “The dawn that breaks upon those who sit in darkness and in the shadow of death” has  nothing to do with latitude. The darkness of Advent is the darkness  within, and the darkness of a fearful, competitive world.  The silence  is the deep silence at the center of our souls.  That’s where Advent  happens, and the birth of Christ unfolds.

Where is the darkness in your life? Where are the places in your life where you can’t see,  where the known disappears into the unknown?  Where is that place in  your awareness where you can be without “seeing,” without knowing or  understanding, and be at peace?

Where is the silence in you?  You won’t find it “out there.” Go within. Sit with it.  Sit with it a lot,  and let it speak to you in the language of angels, the language of God,  which is silence.

Your wagon wheels may not be idle, but there is a place of quiet in your soul. Where are the empty places in your  life?  We might feel uncomfortable about  emptiness, but an empty place  is one where the Christ child can come when there is “no room in the  inn” elsewhere. Perhaps even the painfully empty places―the places of  loss, bereavement, poverty or fruitlessness―maybe these are places where even now angels are gathering.

Don’t expect the world to offer  you darkness, silence and stillness.  Go to where  they are, and wait  there. God will meet you there.

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Steve Garnaas-Holmes
Unfolding Light
http://www.unfoldinglight.net

it’s your life! have an adventure!!!

Cherish your solitude. Take trains by yourself to places you have never been. Sleep out alone under the stars. Learn how to drive a stick shift. Go so far away that you stop being afraid of not coming back. Say no when you don’t want to do something. Say yes if your instincts are strong, even if everyone around you disagrees. Decide whether you want to be liked or admired. Decide if fitting in is more important than
finding out what you’re doing here. Believe in kissing.
– Eve Ensler

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The Invitation

It doesn’t interest me what you do for a living.
I want to know what you ache for, and if you dare to dream of meeting your hearts longing.
It doesn’t interest me how old you are. I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool for love, for your dream, for the adventure of being alive.
It doesn’t interest me what planets are squaring your moon. I want to know if you have touched the center of your own sorrow, if you have been opened by life’s betrayals or have become shriveled and closed from fear of further pain. I want to know if you can sit with pain, mine or your own, without moving to hide it, or fade it, or fix it.
I want to know if you can be with joy, mine or your own, if you can dance with wildness and let the ecstasy fill you to the tips of your fingers and toes without cautioning us to be careful, to be realistic, to remember the limitations of being human.
It doesn’t interest me if the story you are telling me is true. I want to know if you can disappoint another to be true to yourself; if you can bear the accusation of betrayal and not betray your own soul; if you can be faithless and therefore trustworthy.
I want to know if you can see beauty, even when it’s not pretty, every day, and if you can source your own life from it;s presence.
I want to know if you can live with failure, yours and mine, and still stand on the edge of the lake and shout to the silver of the full moon, “Yes!”
It doesn’t interest me where you live or how much money you have. I want to know if you can get up, after the night of grief and despair, weary and bruised to the bone, and do what needs to be done to feed the children.
It doesn’t interest me who you know or how you came to be here. I want to know if you will stand in the center of the fire with me and not shrink back.
It doesn’t interest me where or what or with whom you have studied. I want to know what sustains you, from the inside, when all else falls away.
I want to know if you can be alone with yourself and if you truly like the company you keep in the empty moments.

Oriah from The Invitaion
http://www.oriah.org/

this one’s for me today…

In receiving we heal others
In giving we heal ourselves
– unknown

Both sides of giving are equally as important and this truth is one of the most important parts of healing – ourselves, others and our world. We are here to help each other. It takes understanding of both parts and the willingness to be both the healer and the healed. Vulnerability and tenderness. This is community. This is my path of learning today – my dear friends, so many God has brought into my life right now – are teaching me so much! God is definitely in the neighborhood. 🙂

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