this day
I awake in the womb
Heat
Perspiration covers my clammy body
Soft fuzz sticks to my naked feet
Matted hair covers my face
I try to move
But
I don’t want to move
It’s safe here
My eyes open
Just a crack
Blur
I am drawn to the sliver of light
Calling me to begin
Drawing me to enter life
Like that first day I entered the world –
Would I have entered so easily back then
If I had known today was coming?
I lay silent dread
surrounded by sounds of life
Water swooshing through pipes
Like amniotic fluid pushing me to the threshold
dogs nails on the wood floor above
their click-clack,
like a clock
tick-tocking judgement –
Footsteps
As others start the daily routine
Here in this black dark
time is suspended
Yet I know it is morning
Even tho
I don’t want to know
Coffee –
My need for caffeine
May be my only redemption
Hot tears drip into my ears
I get up and open the door
Blinking
As the bright hits me
hard in the eyes
AL 12/3/12
Hidden Gift
I am confident that the one who began a good work in you
will bring it to completion by the day of Jesus Christ.
—Philippians 1.6
God has begun a miraculous thing in you.
Beneath the matted tangles of your unbelief,
within the brittle shell of Impossibility,
in the dark deep within you,
there it is,
a star in the velvet silence,
a seed in the hard earth,
a child in the virgin’s womb.
Give up trying to guess what’s in the package.
Let go of wanting to see it first before you accept it.
Stop pretending you’re unworthy.
It’s God’s delight to give you this gift.
Meditate on the mystery
of the secretly growing blessing within you.
Like Mary, simply say,
“May it be for me according to your Word.”
Steve Garness-Holmes
http://unfoldinglight.net/
life: acoustic & amplified 