life: acoustic & amplified

poetry, quotes & thoughts about life

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FINDING THE CURE
Fear is a focus That draws focus away From what matters.
Guilt is a hammer That pounds, And pounds, And pounds, On men, Until they surrender, Or stand.
Depression is…
The turning point is so often Found, at the bottom of things. Talking in circles, In a tiny office, With a short, squirrelly man, Who knows more about drugs than people, Psychiatrist indeed. That man sent me into a coma for weeks.
I woke just in time for The sullied, red succubus To have her way, make war, And leave me Broken, sore, and poor. I had spent my life in the pursuit of love And was given loneliness. So, I spent nights in the pursuit of flesh, Only to find less And less And less Of me.
I drank so it would be easier And it was.

Then, in a burnt ashen haze I slipped into a coma, Again, 3rd times a charm.
This time, I woke up in time to go to church. Not for Christ or Communion, Not for meaning or books, or verses Or stories I knew by heart… I went for friends. People I knew, who knew me Before the drill sergeant, and war, Before the agency, and war, Before the sordid succubus Made her own brand of war.
I found my friends there. They had always been there. At my turning point. At my bottom, Where friends are, Where friends live With you, In peaks and valleys Over mountains And oceans Through life. That kind of friend That should have been a wife.

Charles Cooper

I can change a lot of things…

I cannot change someone else’s insecurity

I can fight a lot of battles…

I cannot win against someone else’s insecurity

I can do a lot of things…

I cannot do anything to prove someone’s worth to them…

I can treat everyone I meet with respect and value

I cannot make them understand it from the inside out…

I can send all the love in my heart to others

I cannot make them accept that love…

I do and be and know and give…

I can change my own thinking…

I can fight my own demons…

I can seek to understand my own value and the value of each one…

I can do my own work…

Heal my own life…

That’s all I can do…

 That’s my purpose…

to find the love within my own heart

and reflect it into the world

so that you find grace to do the same

if you so choose

Amy Lloyd

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