nothing to hold
I am the watcher
I keep faith
I am here to observe
the passage
to be the extra set of questions
the guardian of the process
I cannot give you the will to live
I cannot bring happiness
I cannot set you free
I cannot influence the outcome
or your choices
I can only be the keeper of the light
I can only be the vessel of prayer
I can only carry hope in my heart
I can only move aside and allow love to flow through me
I can only stand with courage
I can only see you just as you are
I can only allow you to be your you-ness
I can only love and love and love
That’s what I am called to do
every place I go
😍
AL
my heart hurts today
for the pain you suffer,
for the pain you inflict.
I feel great sorrow
for what you have chosen to accept.
for the manipulation you chose to live in.
sadness sits on me
like a heavy fog
as I drive
I wait.
I pray.
I pay,
the smarmy man,
with the weird goatee,
wearing the faded Jack Daniels t-shirt.
It’s all happening outside of myself,
even my drive home.
I walk a mile quickly
upon my return,
my angst,
mixing with my grief.
my tears haven’t stopped all morning.
I walk this beach,
so familiar,
yet always new.
I pick up rocks with cold, sandy gloves,
filling my pockets.
I stand while the gulls float,
so secure,
so assured,
so secure.
As I watch
peace finally descends,
fills me.
I let go of you…
of my disappointment…
of my desire….
This is never easy for me.
I fight letting go.
trusting is a ruthless business.
I choose to live ruthlessly.
I believe in it!
I’m a just small part of this masterpiece of life.
I acknowledge the blessed truth I know for sure:
I am uniquely loved!
beloved!
helped!
held!
Peace descends.
I walk home in the calm, cold, air.
I am never alone.
I will never be abandoned.
I am loved.
truly and always.
Amen.
🙏🏻
AL
two jobs,
two stories,
two worlds even,
in one movement,
love and need and
nothing now or ever
to come between the two.
💞
– David Whyte
life: acoustic & amplified 